There's something about having a father that makes you feel more secure.
It doesn't matter if his belly is bloated and he don't even know a thing about martial arts.
When he is there in your life, you know there's always one person that gets worry about you and will protect you with whatever shit you have to face.
It's different now.
Somehow now you feel more secluded from the world.
You want something, but you don't really care if you have it either.
You have vision, but it seem clouded and you aren't that eager now.
Everything seems pointless.
Detach. Yes, that's the word for it.
And one thing, you learn...
December 30, 2013
December 27, 2013
Note to self
"Your relationship with Allah is the
most important than anything in this world because
you know for sure that's the only
relationship that last foreve...
December 18, 2013
Kembali
Aku singgah semula ke sini, kerana dunia lain seakan mencengkam, dan membunuh jiwa aku. Bukan ini bukan persinggahan. Ini rumah aku di alam maya, tempat aku lari semula untuk terus kembali waras. p/s: Dan aku kembali mengisi kalian dengan dua puisi (?) yang aku simpan dalam kota draft aku buat sekian lama. Aku post keduanya sebab rasanya macam bertepatan dengan situasi aku sekarang. Heh, konon. Dah. Bai. *awkwar...
December 10, 2013
End
Musim musim ginilah paling aku anticipate sekali sebenarnya.
Lagi sebulan sahaja tinggal before I can finally say goodbye to this freaking hell of a semester. Exactly 4 weeks left, with one week of classes, 1 week of revision period, 2 weeks of finals. Yeay!
Kau tak boleh bayangkan betapa suckass-nya aku semester ni.
Kegagalan utama aku mestilah dengan LE 4000,
yg akhirnya aku decide untuk drop di saat2 akhir dan mengorbankan separuh dari rm 1k demi utk meng-withdraw subject nakharomm ni. Pape pon all is well, its an expensive lesson to pay but it's all worth it. Aku rasa satu beban berat dah hilang serta merta.
Still,...
November 20, 2013
Out, Out -
by Robert Frost
The buzz-saw snarled and rattled in the yard
And made dust and dropped stove-length sticks of wood,
Sweet-scented stuff when the breeze drew across it.
And from there those that lifted eyes could count
Five mountain ranges one behind the other
Under the sunset far into Vermont.
And the saw snarled and rattled, snarled and rattled,
As it ran light, or had to bear a load.
And nothing happened: day was all but done.
Call it a day, I wish they might have said
To please the boy by giving him the half hour
That a boy counts so much when saved from work.
His sister stood beside them in her apron
To tell them 'Supper'....
November 4, 2013
Sebentar
Bagaikan angin,
datangnya seketika.
Meniup dan berlalu lembut di pipi
Menari dalam buai yang mengasyikkan
Jiwa terasa tenang dalam indahnya ia
Disaat pergi,
dicarinya lagi
sehingga terpijak duri duri
terluka diri
kadang langkah itu membawa ke tepi
kelam dan membenam
sepertinya dalam mimpi
memanah jiwa sepi
penat
perjalanan ini jauh sekali
entahkan bila datangnya lagi
harapkan angin meniup pergi...
October 20, 2013
October 13, 2013
October 6, 2013
August 16, 2013
Masa Kecik
Masa kecik, saya selalu pasang angan angan. Saya selalu buat catitan kat kertas kertas tulis apa yang kononnya saya harap untuk capai masa masuk sekolah menengah, masuk universiti mahupun bila dah kerja dan besar nanti. Setiap kali saya tulis, saya akan rasa bersemangat sangat and it made my day. In fact sampai sekarang pon saya still buat senarai tu rasanya. Cuma tak sekerap dulu & tak sesemangat dulu.
Mungkin saya perlu kembali menulis angan angan dan impian saya semula. And this time, i'll go for it. Tak...
June 11, 2013
This poem by Lewis Carroll is loved all around the world by children and adults alike. It is also known as the best example of nonsense poems simply because almost all the words used are made up by the author or an application of portmanteau i.e. words that are a blend of two (or more) words/morphemes into one new word.
`Twas brillig, and the slithy toves Did gyre and gimble in the wabe: All mimsy were the borogoves, And the mome raths outgrabe.
“Beware the Jabberwock, my son! The jaws that bite, the claws that catch! Beware the...
May 23, 2013
INTENSELY OBSESSED
I have grown fond to Sci-Fi, Superhero Action Pack movies or what I used to call "Boy Movies". I thought I'd never like Sci-Fi. My brother used to be so engaged with Star Wars and there I was, beside him, thinking, Meh, another fiction about politics. But now I know how it feels to like Sci-Fi. :DDDD
In the case of superhero movies, they have been instilled in me since I was little but never actually grow much till, well, now. I'm imagining myself being Loki, stuck in my ugly childhood, wishing I could change the future...
May 14, 2013
Lil heart
Dear heart,
Stop being so fragile because there's no one to mend it.
Stop expecting too much because none of it will happen as you wish it.
Stop depending on someone fr that happiness because it's you who know how to make yrself happy.
Please wake up because reality is nothing much from that dream of yours.
Please wake up because it's time fr you to start painting all those dreams into reality.
You yourself & with the help Allah alone.
None others can help you through, none.
So, just stop pleas...
April 30, 2013
Sociology?
"Kau patut amek minor Sociology, kau terlalu cintakan manusia"
Well, yalah, betul kata kau. As much as I hate to admit it, there are still small things in human that I love so much. Orang orang biasa yang jalan tepi tepi jalan tu pon mampu beri perubahan dengan memberi sedikit inspirasi, beri sedikit nafas baru terhadap kehidupan pada diri aku.
Dan dengan itu, aku decide *ini nekad oke takda berpaling dah lepas ni*, aku akan pursue untuk ambil minor Sociology. Bukan sebab peluang pekerjaan, tapi sebab aku tahu aku akan...
April 10, 2013
Ask
Ask the world to feed you love
and the sun will enfold you
its warmth will remind you
of blankets of the seas
the low tide waves
soft caressing your skin
comfort will it bring
Ask the world to feed you love
and the moon will smile at you
its light will guide your lips
from one tip to the other tip
ear to ear
soon you'll hear
crickets sing
peace will it bring
Ask the world to feed you love
and trees will embrace you
their twigs will scratch the threads of your clothes
thrust into your skin; from head to toe
blood shall flow
still, the leaves
will shelter you forever
while you stand beneath them...
March 19, 2013
Clueless
I couldn’t figure out where you are
But I know who you are
Deep inside, I’ve had enough of
Thinking crazily
Waiting like an imbecile
Throbbing heart with pain
Days and night
Missing you
Lucky you have
the special place,
In my small heart
and mind
Do I love you?
Why should I?
I am mad with myself
‘cause I could not get it over
when it comes to you
For you,
Thank you for the trouble.
Praying silently, so that we’ll meet in the future
And you could even be
one of my best peopl...
March 11, 2013
Words
I was walking. Slowly
In depth of the woods I can hear a distant sound
Of words and beauty that transient love
Longing
Lingering
Weighting down my throat
these words aren't meant to be said
these words aren't meant to be heard
come by,
come here by the woods
by the serene sound of flowing river
and sing me words of melancholy
words that move me
words that make me love Him
do come by,
and let me be reminde...
February 12, 2013
Typical minded seriously should be change
Sometimes, you just plain tired of hearing people comments and remarks once they get to know that you are currently pursuing your study in English Linguistic & Literature courses. Some people, yes they do have a good perception with people like us but others simply underestimate us.
Kau pernah belajar bersungguh-sungguh, tanam cita tinggi-tinggi dan capai keputusan yang cemerlang tapi kau ada rasa kekurangan, seolah-olah kau tak rasa cukup puas dengan apa yang kau buat? itu lah apa yang aku rasa masa habis SPM. Dengan keputusan...
February 10, 2013
Real Life
Real life is a funny thing, you know. In real life, saying the right thing at the right moment is beyond crucial. So crucial, in fact, that most of us start to hesitate, for fear of saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. But lately what I've begun to fear more that that is letting the moment pass without saying anything.
I think most of us fear reaching the end of our life, and looking back, regretting the moments we didn't speak up. When we didn't say "I love you." When we should've said "I'm Sorry." When we didn't stand up for ourselves or some one who needed hel...
February 5, 2013
Today
I bumped into him on my way to class today. The sun shone so brightly that he looked as if he was sparkling under it. His messy hair, broad shoulders and dark eyes were like a set of Cartier in a glass box with lights focusing on it. Well, he always looks good. Be it under the sun or in the mud. Honestly, I love the days where I’ll run into him, dressing presumably nicely, and him in his pilot-ish uniform. I noticed that his cheeks are chubbier. I assumed he's eating well. So, that's good. I didn't realize that I was staring at him for quite a long...
January 6, 2013
Silent
Your silence is killing me.
It leaves me in dark, in misery, in despair.
It makes me over-think,
assume the worst than it actually is.
It makes me cry,
it makes me sad,
it makes me feel like screaming.
It left me insecure,
it makes me feel wasted,
it tarnishes every bit of confidence that is left within me.
It makes me lose hope,
it blinds me off from hopes,
it shuts me off from any from every possible light
n drives me crazy in darkness.
Its time to break on the silence,
and put some light...
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