Great Loss

    I look around: The earth – beautiful. The nature - green and alive. The air - refreshing. Ah! Who’s the Creator behind all these? Every corner in this world - not ours. Every breath that we take – temporary. One day, It shall stop without asking us Are we good enough to be great Muslims? Are we deserving of heaven or not? Many - ungrateful They treat earth and its content so badly. Yet, they forget that He is watching and observing days and nights eternally. Haven’t we realised even a bit of it? Such...

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Jogjakarta

There's a first time for everything. And I wanna THANKS A LOT to my very beautiful friends yang sudi teman saya jalan2 pusing Jogja. especially Arga, Aisya, Nila, Mas Didit, Ika etc. Thanks juga Iman cos introduce me to Arga. They are all very nice, walaupun perkenalan ni terlalu singkat tapi ia sangat berharga. Im looking forward to meet you guys next time. and All the best in your studies! ;) ...

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Unless...

All this time, after you've built walls to keep people away. After you wear a different skin, a solemn mask to shed tears and emotions into invisibility. After you promise to never trust. After you said to yourself to never fall. After nights of pain and agony. After nights of trying to forgive. After days and months of building a fort. After being convinced that men are emotionless deceitful human being. After you feeling ready to face this world alone. After making plans and dreams with only you in the picture. After you are about...

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Yet to figure it out

There is almost a distant feeling when you grow up, or realise that you are a grown person.  Past seems like a memory you wish will never fade so that you can cling to it. Tug it close to your chest like hugging a precious teddy bear of your childhood. A warmth comfort but lifeless still. I wish I can let go of it, say that I won't need it any more. Too much I heard them saying that we should never look at our past, life moves on. Yet life as a grown person can be melancholy and poignant, sometimes. If not most of the times. Therefore the only way to bring the colours to the film is by bringing the memories that...

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The tragedy of existence

  I can't catch a breath nowadays. I have this overwhelming fluster about people. They are everywhere. One person keeps on texting me Good Mornings and Good Nights. The other just keeps on asking me to do stuffs. Some just keep asking how am I doing, what am I going to do, this that, this that. Grrrrr. OK. It wasn't that bad but I can't handle people right now. They are too many and I felt like running away from the mass. But I simply can't. So what do I do? I read. Yes. I read a lot. Ironic how this one is the most busiest but I have time to do so. Reading to me has become an escape rope. To be honest, always have....

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Rindu

Buat sekalian kalinya, aku rindu ruang ini. tempat aku memuntahkan buah fikir dan rasa yang terperangkap.  Aku fikir aku boleh hadap semua bising-bising dunia virtual tapi ini tempat terbaik aku untuk merasakan enaknya sendiri. Aku rindu sendiri. Aku rindu berkata tanpa ada yang mengadili. Aku rindu menari-nari di ruang luas sebegini, Aku harus akui, terlalu terikut dengan keasyikan ruang kecil itu. Tapi sejujurnya apa yang dapat aku lunaskan dalam 140 patah perkataan itu, mahupun dalam sekeping gambar itu? Tiada. Jadi, aku kembali ke sin...

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Driving toward the Lac Qui Parle River

BY ROBERT BLY I I am driving; it is dusk; Minnesota.The stubble field catches the last growth of sun.  The soybeans are breathing on all sides.Old men are sitting before their houses on car seats  In the small towns. I am happy,The moon rising above the turkey sheds.II The small world of the carPlunges through the deep fields of the night,  On the road from Willmar to Milan.  This solitude covered with ironMoves through the fields of nightPenetrated by the noise of crickets.III Nearly to Milan, suddenly a small bridge,And water kneeling in the moonlight.In small towns...

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Berlalu

Katanya kita tidak serasi.Lalu aku berlalu pergi.Mencari bahagiaku sendiri. Jauh sudah aku berjalan.Terasa dipanggil dari kejauhan. Kau yang pinta aku berlalu,bila menjauh, kau minta aku mendekat. Apa yang kau mahu?Biarkan aku.Biarkan aku.Kau dan aku,katanya tidak mungkin akan bersama.Jadi,apa yang kau mahu? Biarkan aku.Biarkan aku.Aku bahagia disini.Aku bahagia sendir...

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Feeling and Emotion

Don't be deceived by me, I'm good at wearing mask.&nbs...

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DIA yang utama

Salam, Ada masanya kita terlalu benci, benci pada diri kita. Kalau mahu dicampak kesemua sesalan dahulu, tentu berkerah juga tenaga dan segala kudrat aku. Hitam, aku rasa kalau hati aku warnanya putih, sekarang dah hitam pekat tak terlihat putihnya. Katanya setiap dosa akan menambahkan titik hitam pada hati, nah, nak letak mana lagi titik hitam tu, aku pon dah tak tahu. Sepertinya tiada lagi kesan putih di sini. Ada kalanya aku harap Tuhan dapat bersihkan semula hati aku, macam Dia cuci hati Rasulullah dulu. Demand sangat nak mintak cuci, padahal tahap kasih pada Tuhan masih belum sampai kesitu. Bila didengarkan kisah-kisah...

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Boona Mohammed - SIGNS

Let me take a moment to show some kindness, To the folks who blindness was a disease that effected the eyes alone,I promise I won't judge you, I barely know how to love youAnd like fools we preach rules, but we don't even follow our own.Everybody needs comfort,Some people find it in this; some people find it in thatAnd some people just don't find it at all.But this world is full of signs From the moon to the stars in the skyFrom the bees and the bugs, like a seed in your bloodLike a feen to a drug, makes you need to look upAnd questions what's up, why you deal with this stuff?When your spirits are crushed and...

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I wish

It was 18th of Ramadhan already. 18 days had passed as swiftly as morning breeze that brushed upon your cheeks. How times seems running so fast and how much important things was left undone, wasted for something petty.  18 days and I look back on how much, no how little I have achieved on this Holy Month. I'd say if we, start of our life with 100 points and this points are the ones which determined whether we passed to enter Jannah or not. In life, points are added and subtracted, humans are judged by how many points left by the end of his/her life. What if death comes calling for time out, what...

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Of chaos

In internet world, there's only a few places where I can seek solitude. . . . . . . Others are just full of bollocks & pretentious organism which I failed to understan...

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Eat the bitter, spit out the sweet

  Believe me, young man! All you need to do is to breathe in, and all shall be well.   There were times when the sky seemed so blue, you cried and all the words that express love, changed into the hardest ache in your heart.   When silence finally breaks in and roars your head explodes into burdening unsaid words Of every thoughts of ifs and whys- They linger around poking each of the veins in your brains seducing you to jump! Jump and die!   Too many memories Too many things You’re blinded...

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Insan kerdil

Aku marah,tatkala dibawanya dia pergi jauh dari akuAku marah dan kecewa.Aku persalahkan semuanya.Aku mempersoal semuanya.Mana mungkin dapat ditanggung berkali kali dijauhkan.berkali kali dipisahkan.Aku juga mahu gembiraAku juga mahu tersenyum dan ketawaAku marah pada Diaternyata buta hati aku waktu ituternyata kabur sungguh penglihatan hati initernyata aku sudah dibutakan mata hatinyaMana mungkin aku sebegini dekat padaMuMana mungkin aku sedar harga cinta sebenarMana mungkin aku terbangun dari tipuan lenaJika mataku hanya terpandang pada disiniDisana itu jauh lagi,tak terbayang indahnya.Maafkan aku kerana lupa pada Cinta...

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A Great Loss

I look around: The earth – beautiful. The nature - green and alive. The air - refreshing. Ah! Who’s the Creator behind all these? Every corner in this world - not ours. Every breath that we take – temporary. One day, It shall stop without asking us Are we good enough to be great Muslims? Are we deserving of heaven or not? Many - ungrateful They treat earth and its content so badly. Yet, they forget that He is watching and observing days and nights eternally. Haven’t we realised even a bit of it? Such a great great loss What a great great los...

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Penat

hari ini, banjir lagi kalis matanya hari ini, runtuh lagi jiwanya ya,  wanita yang bersuara keras, yang berlagak kasar yang berpura kuat itu  ternyata sudah penat dengan onar dan domba dengan sayang yang dusta ternyata  semuanya mengecewakan hari ini, banjir lagi kalis matanya hari ini, runtuh lagi jiwanya ya, kerana dia yang berlari pergi tapi juga kerana Dia yang sentiasa di si...

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Menulis

Hello! Aku rasa aku patut buat blog baru kot. Nak lari sikit. Hihi.  Atau kita tak payah buat blog, kita menulis je dalam buku lebih baik, lebih privasi, lebih menyendiri. Tapi rasanya akan/mesti buat satu blog khas untuk brush up skills aku dalam penulisan. Mana tahu tengah syok tulis-tulis, tiba-tiba orang dari majalah LIBUR singgah baca. Untung-untung dapat jadi travel writer, ye dok? Berangan saja. Tapi angan-angan boleh jadi kenyataan bukan...

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Parts of my mind

Recently, I got burned and it really taught me a lot. It really got me thinking and made me look deep. We live in such a photoshopped world! It has really started to hurt my heart. Its like we all have to be so perfectly manicured. Every hair perfectly placed. And God forbid if we have blemish or two or five!  And don't even begin to talk things like scars or stretch marks! Ive started to wonder- where are the people who still appreciate any humanness? Where are the ones still comfortable with the not-so-perfect, messy parts of life? The messy parts of each other? Just the real, flaws and all... I have begun to fell...

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Girlfriend

Good friend are like stars, you don't always see them. But you know they're always there :...

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Puzzle

When we were born, we were an incomplete puzzle. Love and whatnot filled us up with a few pieces but throughout the years of growing up, a rascal, maybe two or three, took some of those pieces out of us. And we would continuously try to fill each vacant spaces with new ones but people would continuously rule them out. But we never give up to fill those empty spaces until at one point in our lives, we found someone that we thought would finally make our puzzles complete, but being more powerful than those rascals, this particular one ravaged the puzzle, scratching each and everything, tearing us into bits, threw us, smashed...

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Silver Lining

Braaaaaaaaanngggggggbufffffggghhhhh!               The majestic vein-like lights started to roam the darkened sky. Slowly, the dry pavements began to wet with little raindrops. Drip upon drip they sent shivers to her weak bones. The silhouette of big trees opposite her house swung from right to left. The clouds were having a war again. The glass window was wet washed up by heavy rain. Her vision became a blur. She wiped the glass window repeatedly though she knew already that the blurriness would not go away. All she saw then were bright lights from the streets and heard the swish of tires...

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Reads

When you read a book, not a particularly ordinary book in this case. And each words written there seems to be etched upon your skins of thoughts. You mind scarred with its beauty, aching for more, craving to have written in equal aesthetic quality. I can't help myself from stopping for a while, to gulp the fluid of words down my throat and move my hand to scribble the torrents down in blank pages.  Dead men's words have never been so alive, as long as the words he crafted live in the mind of those who reads. I am intoxicated...

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None

I speak Sin, I walk Sin, I touch Sin, How can I ever dare to have such wishful thoughts Of being by Your side? When with every blink of my eyes that hope to see glimpses of perfections, I can only see idiotic flaws that make up my existence. But You, You forgive, You accept, You are the most perfect of all perfections. And so for Your love, I harbour this longi...

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What a messy day. Or Im too careless

Hello there little fellas, how have you been? To be perfectly honest, my life now is more kinda like a huge pile of clothes waiting to be folded where you can't simply find a bit of your time to fold them down though the very sight of such piles are a great eyesores to you. To make matter worse, the piles seems to add up every seconds. So now you are not only left with a pile, but also a few more piles in waiting queue! Yep, that's right, that appropriately what my life has been for the time being. I seriously need an escape,...

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