Strong enough

A secret that was told too much Flew from ear to mouth They talk about my feelings They talk about who I am inside One secret is all they need and They think they know me oh-so-well Though none got me right and all got me wrong Still despite it all, I was stripped naked I was standing in front of them all Powerless of saying or doing anything When all I want to do is cry myself to sleep They told me to put on a strong face They told me to fight it Yes, they were my pick-me-ups; I can’t deny it When all I want to do...

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Human

  “When you see a female dressed in a manner that is unacceptable islamically, do not for a moment think that she is lower than you spiritually. If you do that, you are lower than her. Believe me, that is the teaching of your religion. She might have a link with her creator that you do not know about. She might have a heart that is tons better than yours. She might have one weakness that is outward, and you have 50 weaknesses that are hidden” - Mufti Menk. _____________________________________________ Jangan. Yang namanya...

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Flirty Friends

Reminiscence of past conversation:   "Hi. You doin OK ke?" "Well, I'd say, separuh OK. sighh..." "Oh? Well, what can I do to fulfill the other half? wink wink" Flirty friends. -They are both a friend and a person who flirts a lot. To me, they are generally harmless. However, these people should not be permitted to just flirt where ever, whenever they want. Fitnah, yes, tend to happen if flirting is done unwisely. So, flirty friends are quite harmful too sometimes. Especially if the activity affects the well-being of the friendship; normally if it causes misunderstandings among non-involved people. To me,...

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Mt Pulag 13-14 Dec

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Because I am scared

I feel scared to browse the Internet, to browse down my Twitter timeline and Facebook newsfeed; because I am scared of what I might find, see or read; Of people who love to criticise one another without learning how to empathise; Of 'religious people' and how they love to jump at others with their haram fatwa and make everybody look so wrong and sinful. The truth is... I am scared of all these people, of all these things. I log in to my Twitter and only dare to stay on my Interaction and Mention page. I log in to my Facebook and keep my eyes at the notifications ONLY. I log in to my Instagram only if I receive notifications....

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Starbucks and VS

There's something about standing    between a perfume and a coffee shop, the blend of bittersweet smell; the living tale of love and hate, tells well when you're standing    between a perfume and a coffee sho...

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Why do I have to fall in love with the wrong persons?

I constantly ask myself this question, “Why do I have to fall in love with the wrong persons? Is it necessary? Are the feelings are a test from Allah or are they just a matter of our own nafs? I wish someone or a scholar could talk and elaborate more on this in the light of al-Qur’an.” But the truth is, I or any of us don’t need a scholar to explain to us why, because if we have faith, if our relationship with Allah is good, if Allah is always in our heart, if we keep our life busy with the remembrance of Allah, if we practice what the people of taqwa do, if we lower our gaze, if we know what are differences between...

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Still stuck in reverse

people in your life will come and go like ships that harbours on an island. some may stay longer,  many may swiftly go away. a few will never leave you  and decide to stay forever. i believe that they are people that come across your life, knowing you a little but that just is. maybe some of them will remember you,  perhaps because of one small yet significant role you've played in their life. some, will get to know you  deeper,  but not close enough for you to pour everything out. they'll stay in your life long enough. but they are a few, so small in number, perhaps two or three,  that know...

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Dia

Dia cantik tampaknya lembut  bersantun sesuai  Saya? tiada apa hanya ada cinta yang disimpan  berkarat di dalam laci hati ...

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VIPER CHALLENGE 5/11/2016

    Yeayyy I survived Viper Arena 21KM 21 Obstacles! @ Sepang International Circuit   ...

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"He exists."

#fiction I stopped typing the forever hateful Management Paper. Suddenly, the whole world felt in place; the weather was right, people are annoying as Hell for sure, but it was this wonderful serenity just swiped through and said, "He exists." And he exists in a way he thought to be boring and monotonous but none that he knew how desperately I need him day after another. How funnily clueless he could be most of the times and it tears me because I might accidentally left a wrong note to myself on how perfect he is. In which he is. Work that day was as usual plain and sometimes hellish. I looked at my phone screen wishing...

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SEMPORNA 7 Island

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Sempurna!

bila kau jumpa satu seni indahdari lakaran mudah ke rona warna mempesonadan kau ketemu pula jalinan katadihiasi bait bait ritma yang mengasyikkankau gabung kan seni dan kata itumembentuk satu jalinanapa yang kau dapat?aku lihat satu cinta barusatu keindahan yang bisa mengisiTuhan, Kau mungkin matikan satu cintatapi Kau hembuskan pula satu cinta yang barumungkin beza zahirnyatapi hatiku merasa debaran yang sama.&nbs...

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Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda

Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda, pabila Dia membiarkan kita menemui kegagalan. Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda, pabila Dia menimpakan kita dengan musibah. Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda, pabila Dia membiaskan kita dengan kehilangan. Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda, pabila Dia suapkan kita dengan berita kematian. Tuhan itu dikatanya bercanda, pabila Dia mengetuk-getuk hati kita tiap kali kita mengataNya bercanda, meniup angin lembut keinsafan, memberi ingat pada akal yang lupa. meniup angin sayup keindahan, memberi hidup pada hati yang mati.             Lalu siapa yang sebenar-benarnya...

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See the goodness in the heart

Macam kelakar pun ada bila ada orang buat cerita aku hack laman social dia, hebat sangat ke aku nak hack? what a life. Semoga Allah beri petunjuk :) "I do not understand why you would go out of your way to hurt each other, when life can already hurt so much" - I wrote this for you How can I make you see that there's nothing you can gain from having too much hate in your life? I pity you for seeing the worst in everyone and everything. Haven't it occurred to you how exhausting it was? Please let it go. Let it all go. Life's a beauty you'll never see if you let your eyes obscured with negativity. This is the time to...

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Weekend and me

Banyak nak cakap tapi tak tahu macam mana nak lunas kan dalam perkataan. semua post post aku yang lepas sebenarnya aku tulis lama dah dalam 2-3 minggu yang lepas. tapi aku scheduled kan biar dia post secara regular. kononkonon nak menampakkan macam aku ni rajin menghapdet belog *padahal nakharom tidak. dekat rumah pon aku jarang menulis. jarang duduk dan membuat list cantik2 macam yang aku suka buat masa di uia dahulu. aku balik kerja habis masa dengan berbaring dan tidur. tapi aku takde lah masuk aktiviti apa2 secara specific, at least takde lah macam dulu. kenapa penat nya pun tak tahu.  Aku rasa aku perlu berjalan...

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Social Network kills me

I'll be steering myself clear off Facebook and Instagram for a while. Maybe I'll stay deactivated fr a few months and see how it goes.  This is one of my own challenge fr me to prove to myself, that I'm better off without these social networking sites. But I'll still be here in blog ...

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Irau again 16/4/16

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Dejavu @ Kinabalu 29/3/16

yeayyy I did it!!!!...

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I miss writing

I miss writing. My language suck now. I miss writing. I miss writing so freely where I don't care whatever people might think or assume from reading my words and thoughts. I miss making art through words in poetry, through acts in theatre, through colours in painting even they all suck big time. I think there is one point at my life when I start to realise that my thoughts and views can be different, that it can be hurtful, that it can only be understood by my own secluded self and a few minds that shared the same notions of life with me.  I don't know when I start have negative notion with people.  I...

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Baling Pulai 30/1/16

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GAP.ULU SEMANGKUK 23/1/16

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GBH 16/1/16

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2016

Well, hello there. It's been a while. It feels like meeting an old friend. I should penned this somewhere. Somewhere that I might come across someday. I tend to forget things. My mind is a mess, cluttered with unnecessary thoughts. I don't know what went wrong really but it's becoming a mess now. There are two basis for this circumstances. Number one: That's what happen to everyone when you grow up; you're mind becomes so cluttered you don't even know where to begin with. Or number two: I tend to bottled things up instead of writing it down. I don't know how to keep reminding myself again and again or even to find the...

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