December 28, 2012

Meeting Ghulam

I had had it listening to my peers ramble. With an adult nearby, I felt a little safe. Safe from misjudgements, from emotional rants, hatred etc. Adults might still judge me, especially Prof Ghulam, about my bad English, but he didn't. He was warm and his room was cool. I immediately felt ok.


December 7, 2012

Get over it

This is not the best moment in my life.
No, it's not about things that I wish I own or goals that I have yet to achieved.
This is about inexplicable strings of emotions that had been engulfed inside me for long.


I don't know what went wrong or what is the real problem behind this.
I just hope it will be over soon.





Should I get myself organised and plan my future well so everything seem less clouded?

Perhaps I should get de-clutter all the cloudy matters that are bugging my mind.
Perhaps I should seek refuge to the Almighty more often.





On the other side of the coin, my short semester finally begins.
And I hope it offers me with better insight and enrichment.

November 15, 2012

October 10, 2012

Worth every moment

We’ve been together long enough to know each other well,
the moments spent together were wonderful, only time could tell.
You bring me to new places though only for a cup of tea,
It is amusing how much a soul could mean to me.
Then all of a sudden things changed and I don’t know why,
we kept on fighting even when saying goodbye.
Even after trying hard it still remains the same,
the sparkle has disappeared and everything turned lame.
Seeing that probably the best thing to do was to move on,
I knew I had to say something today before dawn.
The thought that we will be happier without each other
really scares my mind, heart and thoughts more than ever.
If only there was still a chance for us,
I would stop making such a big fuss.
You see, being with you was worth every moment,
It will take forever to find another replacement.

October 9, 2012

Hello!

belog ini bukan untuk kau
tapi untuk aku

belog ini untuk hati aku
untuk aku

bila tua nanti, aku nak baca semula
*kalau umur panjang la*
supaya nanti aku boleh gelakkan diri sendiri
aku boleh cakap,
"apalah yang aku pikir masa muda muda dulu, hampeh weyh hampeh"
sebab bila dah tua, 
aku dah nampak hampir keseluruh lukisan yang aku dah warnakan kat kanvas hidup ini
masa sekarang, mungkin aku tak nampak lagi
aku masih lagi bermain warna
tapi masa tu, 
aku dah masak dengan hidup
aku dah tahu apa yang aku tak tahu sekarang

bila aku tua,
dan aku baca semula apa aku tulis kat sini,
aku akan cakap
"hmm, ya ya, aku ingat lagi apa jadi masa aku tulis ni"
and all the memories flood in my mind


this is my memorabilia to-be
this place is not for you, not for anyone
but for me,
just me.