Reads

When you read a book, not a particularly ordinary book in this case. And each words written there seems to be etched upon your skins of thoughts. You mind scarred with its beauty, aching for more, craving to have written in equal aesthetic quality.

I can't help myself from stopping for a while, to gulp the fluid of words down my throat and move my hand to scribble the torrents down in blank pages. 

Dead men's words have never been so alive, as long as the words he crafted live in the mind of those who reads.

I am intoxicated beyond words and strings of alphabets. 

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None

I speak Sin,
I walk Sin,
I touch Sin,
How can I ever dare to have such wishful thoughts
Of being by Your side?
When with every blink of my eyes
that hope to see glimpses of perfections,
I can only see idiotic flaws
that make up my existence.
But You,
You forgive,
You accept,
You are the most perfect
of all perfections.
And so for Your love,
I harbour this longing

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What a messy day. Or Im too careless

Hello there little fellas, how have you been?

To be perfectly honest, my life now is more kinda like a huge pile of clothes waiting to be folded where you can't simply find a bit of your time to fold them down though the very sight of such piles are a great eyesores to you. To make matter worse, the piles seems to add up every seconds. So now you are not only left with a pile, but also a few more piles in waiting queue! Yep, that's right, that appropriately what my life has been for the time being.

I seriously need an escape, a true escape where you gone to foreign land and discover new things there. I initially thought that I might succeed in escaping my responsibilities as a student by going back to my house every day but that doesn't seems to work. Home is like a nest, a sanctuary for this restless and messed up mind. However my commitments had enforced me to go back to the hustle bustle of undergrads and I had been going to and fro from home to my uni everyday this week. How I wish time will magically stops so I can work my way for a while before I push the play button again. 

Whatever it is, I am terribly sorry if I've been too messed up that I might miss you out and don't stop for a chat like I usually do. I'm sorry for not showing up a genuine smile upon my face, for not being all giddy and excited, for being silent rather that being all chatty like  my usual self. 

I can't even took a deep breath. Literally! 

Things, fortunately, are beginning to slow down now, thank Allah! Perhaps because I finally managed to sit down and having it all figured out. At least, despite all the waiting list of works and happenings this month, everything was finally sorted out and organised so I can settle things down one by one. Hope all is well then. Good day!

p/s: I've lost my laptop during my busy course of life. He has been there for me as He has always been. So, it's okay then. After all, He is always there for us, isn't it? :)

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Ajarkan aku

Bawakan aku terus pada kamu
Jangan dekati aku dengan mereka

Ajarkan aku cinta
Ajarkan aku pahit di sini
Ajarkan aku manis di sana
Ajarkan aku pada keindahan
pada percikan warna dan udara yang kau hembuskan
Ajarkan aku pada kesengsaraan
pada hati hati buta yang butuh diperingatkan

Jika aku jatuh lagi, 
tersisir jauh dari pandangan itu
desir kecil aku harap kau kalihkan mataku ke situ

Bukan niatku untuk meminta tapi ini harapan kecil aku yang kerdil kerana aku tahu, kau tidak pernah mengecewakan. Kau tidak akan mengecewakan. Kau adalah satu satunya yang aku pasti.

Kau adalah kepastian.
Satu satunya kepastian di titik ini.

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Yong Belar again 6/12/2014

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IIUM 30th C. Day

 

 

All praise to Allah The Most High

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Day Challenge!

I finally decide to accept the 365 Day Challenge considering my lack of ideas to write something here. I felt the urge to write, but none actually came out of me and this very page was left with old post covered in dust. 

So, hurmmm. Hopes, dreams & plans eh?

I don't know whether this can be achieved in the time of a year from the moment I wrote them down but I hope by that time, at least I would be a bit near towards reaching them. 

1. Each day, I hope that I am a step closer to Allah.

This would be my topmost wish. Forever. And for all of you out there. I want to learn more, practice more & love more about my Creator and my Faith.

2. To increase my CGPA and .

If it was for me, I am just content for having to learn something I am very passionate about. A great result would be a bonus for me but a great result would be a gift for my parents. So, this one goes especially for them.

3. To at least try 5 different sport & adventures.

These are currently on top of my list.

- Wall climbing/ Rock Climbing

- Bungee Jumping

- Paintball

- White water rafting

- Hiking

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

4. To travel to at least travel to 3 foreign lands.

Road trips, couch surfing, leisure travel or whatever it is. 

These are the lands which I wish to step my feet on *for now* :-

- Indonesia

- Singapore

- Pulau Perhentian

- Sabah/Sarawak

5. To involve more in voluntary and charity work. 

6. To buy these things using MY OWN money

- Fujifilm Instax Panda

- Digital Camera

- Smartphone

- New bookshelves & drawers fr my room

7. To find another source of income beside scholarships

8. To learn more of these

- Cooking & Baking

- Sewing

- DIY/Handmade products

- Language (Mandarin or Spanish or French)

9. To get fit & eat healthily

10. To be a miracle each day and make every day worthwhile

There are many other things that I wish to write down. A lot of small goals which I wish to achieve and also some bad habits which I wish to get rid off. But up there would be the big things I wish to do within 365 days. Let's just hope for the very best. :D

 

 

 

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Be grateful

Aku percaya apa sahaja yang ada pada aku sekarang sudah cukup bagiku. Terlebih cukup sehinggakan ada nikmat yang aku rasa tidak layak untuk aku rasakan. Tapi aku lebih bersyukur rasanya pabila Dia tarik sedikit nikmat itu daripada aku.


Dia gagalkan aku dalam sesuatu, untuk mengingatkan aku pada kelemahan.
Yang setinggi manapun kita, ada waktu kita jatuh terluka untuk mengingatkan kita bahawa kita sentiasa berpijak pada tanah, pada kehinaan darjat kita sebagai hamba.



Dia biarkan aku melakukan silap, untuk mengingatkan aku pada dosa.
Yang selamanya, perjuangan kita melawan diri sendiri itu sentiasa, setiap masa, setiap saat. Selalunya lebih banyak dosa kita buat dalam hati dan benak fikiran dari apa yang terzahir secara fizikal. Perang ini berterusan, sehingga kita terkubur ke tanah.


Dia tarik seseorang aku sayang, untuk mengingatkan aku pada kehilangan.
Hilang cinta pada manusia itu memedihkan tapi tidak pernah kita bandingkan jika hilangnya jiwa dan hati kita pada Dia tatkala terlarinya kita dari cintaNya. Kematian seseorang itu terasa perit untuk tanggung di dunia, tapi kehilangan Tuhan itulah yang sebenarnya mematikan kita.


Terlalu banyak bait-bait kesyukuran yang terlepas dari pandangan kerana hati dungu dipandukan akal keras, kerana lama sudah pandangan kita ditetapkan pada yang salah. 

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Ini pesan untuk aku dan mungkin kau yang terbaca ini.

Tiba masa untuk kau kalih pandangan.

Lihat ke sana. Di situ lebih indah.

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